My weekend in Pictures

First attempt at a wonder mould cake. I under baked it and had to restart ~ and avoid the temptation to eat it all.  I succumbed to eating just the part in the bowl.

Really tough Saturday morning circuit class - 647 calories is almost a new record.  I died!

First hot car sighting of the day - the gym I do Saturday circuit at is upstairs and a guy rents the downstairs to store 2 very nice sports cars

A healthy and successful shopping trip to Costco - veggies, strawberries, egg whites and 4 new perennials!

Hot car sighting #2 - I think all the sun Saturday morning brought them all out.  I'm not complaining!

And then after shopping - a nice nap on the couch.  This is how my dog sleeps - hiding his head under the coffee table.  I swear he thinks that we can't see him this way.

Saturday evening was spent making a birthday cake for a girl's 3rd birthday.  The second attempt at the wonder mould cake worked much much better and left me with no scraps to eat - wohoo!

Sunday morning I was up early posting wedding items and misc items on craigslist.  This is part to help accomplish 2 items on my 101 things to do in 1001 days.

Lots and lots of laundry today - these are the last 2 loads.  Aren't you just jealous of my hot pink carpet? lol.

To Be Accomplished Still:

Picking all the wonderful dandelions that have popped up in the last 2 weeks.  I also want to plant the new perennials I picked up yesterday

Gotta get my veggies in!

Chicken defrosting - I will be batch cooking the chicken and broccoli tonight so I have healthy lunches and dinners for the weeks

Canucks Game at 5!  Go Canucks Go!

Overall, fairly healthy, fairly active, and getting much accomplished!

Pictures of Fat

I finally found that stupid connector cord.  

And was able to see full body picture of myself.  I chose simple, body skimming black workout pants and a blue tank top.  No bra so we can see what it looks like without the help of Victoria's Secret.

Wow.  Nothing like putting it out there in its full glory.

Now lets pick it apart like all females do!

I actually don't mind my butt.  It could be worse, but it is much better than I thought. 

My boobs, ugh... I so want new ones!  I would love for my boobs to actually stick out further than my stomach one day!  

I don't mind my waist, I actually have some curves.  And in dark clothes, I don't look too bad from the front.  The sides though!  Mamma-Mia.  Thank gawd for Spanx!

Oh those arms... ick ick ick ick.  I have this feeling that I'll have to suffer through excess skin removal surgery there when I'm done.  

What else?  My calves aren't too bad, but to ever get to that elusive weight and body where my thighs no longer rub together... I don't know if that is possible!

I don't quite have a chin as a slope...  I don't really have a neck.  I eventually want to see a defined chin.. and a neck.. not triangle is trying to imitate one.

Hmm...  maybe in different lighting I'd look worse from the front, there doesn't seem to be any definition there, just a blob.

Yeah.. that is what I am.  Just one big blob of fat trying to write a blog.

The Blob Blog!  lol.

Okay... I've driven myself into delirium looking at how ugly I am.

I've got 80lbs of fat to remove from that body... wish me luck!  

Come on Pictures!!

Clipart from Clipartheaven.com

I know no weight loss blog is complete without before and after pictures.

I'm still looking for a picture of me which shows the weight at 260 lbs, but I took a couple of current ones of me at 241 this evening.  Now I'm just trying to get them off the camera!

First, I couldn't use my DSLR because I live alone and couldn't get my remote trigger to work; I hope it is just the battery that is dead.  Since I couldn't get my iPhone to balance properly I ended up using my point and shoot Panasonic Lumix.  While it takes good photos, getting said photos off the card is turning into a hassle!  I can't find that one stupid cord to connect to the camera with (out of the 7 different cords we use to connect various devices to the computer) and my USB card reader is being stubborn and won't connect to Windows 7.  I don't know who to blame that on!

But trying to find the photos made me realize that I've always stayed behind the camera since it was safer than standing in front of it in all my fatty glory.  I cringe when I look at myself in photos.  I don't know many obese females that don't.  The worst was when I took a photography course with 3 friends, 2 being gorgeous, tiny, females, the other a fairly attractive male, and we had to model for each other.  It made me so self-concious to see the full body "beauty shots" up on a huge projection screen showing off my ugly disgusting body right after my svelte classmates.  I despise being in front of the camera and sadly realized that I'm not that good behind it either.

How many of us keep those "ugly" photos for motivation?  

How many of us crash diet so we'd look better in photos at important events?  We don't necessarily care if we look thin on the day of, but we so want those photos, those everlasting memories, to show us at our thinnest. 

How many of us have googled "How to look thinner in photos"?

How many of us have deleted photos where we look larger than we imagine ourselves in our head?

I answer a resounding yes to all of the questions above.  I'm constantly amazed by how ugly and large I look in photos.  Yet, once again, they may motivate me to lose weight temporarily, but nothing lasting.

What is that thing that can motivate us to lose 100 pounds?  Where does that motivation come from?  Is it one life event?  A series of events? One photo?

What has motivated you to take the step and permanently, consistently work toward achieving a healthy you?